During one of my seminary classes, I was asked whether I am a people person or a goal oriented person. It was clear, at least in my own opinion, that I was a people person because I like people, I get along well with people and I also work well in a group setting. Apparently, that wasn’t the case. My professor who asked me that question looked at me and said that I am more of a goal oriented person. His response was very shocking to me but it was a well needed assessment of my life and the way I do ministry. I realized that my life was primarily driven by goals and the love of people has been pushed aside for the sake of reaching certain goals in life and ministry. To this day, I still struggle to be more mindful and caring for the people that I serve. There are many pastors and church leaders who deal with the same issue as I do because we are called to be shepherds who tend and care for their sheep rather than just getting our jobs done.
For the last few weeks, God has reminded me of the importance of shepherding through various oikos ministry trainings. As I was going through the oikos leaders’ training sessions, God convicted me of my role as a shepherd, not a hired hand. The heart of a shepherd that goes after one lost sheep is what I need to develop more in my life. God has already given me the heart of a shepherd but it’s been pushed out and covered up by the eagerness to achieve goals. Not only am I struggling with caring for the people, but I also need to let go of my selfish mindset and learn to work together with people even at the cost of my “desired” outcome. There is an old saying in Korean that comes to my mind, “it’s better to go one mile together than ten miles alone.” Yes, it is true that the process of accomplishing the goal might be delayed or may not even be reached at all, but that’s the way God wants us to live our lives. King Solomon wrote in Ecclesiastes chapter 3:8-12, 
This is the case of a man who is all alone, without a child or a brother, yet who works hard to gain as much wealth as he can. But then he asks himself, “Who am I working for? Why am I giving up so much pleasure now?” It is all so meaningless and depressing. Two people are better off than one, for they can help each other succeed. If one person falls, the other can reach out and help. But someone who falls alone is in real trouble. Likewise, two people lying close together can keep each other warm. But how can one be warm alone? A person standing alone can be attacked and defeated, but two can stand back-to-back and conquer. Three are even better, for a triple-braided cord is not easily broken.
I hope to practice more of being patient and caring with my own kids at home. How often do we ignore our kids’ needs or wants in the name of work, ministry and even for the sake of our personal space? I pray that God will open up our ears to hear, to respond, to treasure the people that He has blessed us with in our daily lives. That will be the very first step of becoming the shepherds God called us to be.

                                                                                                                                                         
From Pastor Brians Heart
September 22, 2013

So the announcement was made last Sunday by the Pastoral Search Committee that Pastor Neil has been designated as NCFC English Congregation’s Acting Senior Pastor. This announcement was warmly received by the congregation as a whole. And judging by the congregational comments made at the reception following service many had thought he should’ve been made senior pastor all along and wondered why it had taken this long for the decision to be made.
I think the answer to that speaks to Pastor Neil’s sincere faith and deep-seated humility above and beyond any other worldly concerns. He never campaigned for nor positioned himself for any such lofty titles or authority. For the last two decades, he always simply wished to serve the Lord faithfully by thoughtfully and carefully shepherding those placed in his care throughout the years. He embraced the privilege to serve the Lord in the many various roles he served as deacon, elder and now pastor so selflessly without any regard for the consequence or sacrifice to himself.  This is a tremendous witness of the true measure of the man. Indeed, at the reception “pledges” of support and allegiance were made to him by those who held such high respect and admiration for him. He has been essential to our spiritual growth. It must’ve been heart-warming for Pastor Neil to receive back just a little of the warmth and support he and his wife and family have graciously given out over the years. Without him this church would no doubt look very different then and now.
I count myself as one of the many people Pastor Neil has encouraged and nurtured along the way. Although I have not known him for as long as many in our congregation have I feel as though I have a good sense of his character having witnessed the sheer effort, time and energy he invested in this church from the time I was a lay congregation member to now serving with him as pastoral staff.  The patience and grace he demonstrated while serving under strong leadership in previous years was truly remarkable.
And while we as a congregation may profess our commitment to Pastor Neil as now senior pastor, what I love most about that gesture is that it was never calculated or demanded by Pastor Neil. It’s my sense that his ministry was never about getting people to draw closer to him but rather, through his guidance and encouragement, we drew closer to the Lord. God gives us our will and purpose in life if we choose to follow it and there is no doubt He places special persons in our paths to prepare the way. Pastor’s Neil’s reluctant election to step into this senior pastor role as God has called him to, and once again set aside his personal comfort zone and desires, makes him eminently qualified for the position. amen to that.

From Pastor Mark’s Heart
April 6, 2014